Papa

Cut from the same cloth of flesh and blood
the resemblance obvious to the world
Two peas in a pod split open by circumstance.
For years I blamed, held resentment encased by affection
bubbling on the surface my tears, my heart searching for answers.

I made a point of forgetting, putting you aside
you werenít there and didnít deserve my thoughts.
Life moved on without you.

I write not to hurt you, but to say I have changed
older and wiser, I miss you everyday.
The realisation that love is never easy
I was wasnít abandoned
Or a mistake to be brushed under the carpet.

Wishing you could see my life and know more about me,
My favourite colour is green; I love cheese and hate mayonnaise!
It may seem silly but itís important to me.

My dream is for you to be part of my life,
Not once a year but every day.
Recently you have been my rock;
a guiding light helping me find my way.
Without you I couldnít have followed the path I needed to take.

Do you know how much I love you?
Do you know how much I miss you?
Do you know how much I love you?